nobody said it would be easy..no one ever said it would be this hard...let's take it back to the start...

okay, so things have been alright. nothing really to report...haha. i love how i said report, as if it's an obligatory thing for me to write...sometimes i feel as though it is. like, if i don't get it out, it'll never come out. like...i dunno. things have been pretty mellow. i'm about to be eighteen in seven days, so that is exciting. graduation in twenty-three days! i'll be out of high school. i won't start college  until next spring, though, so i can work and do other things. i'm going to disneyland in december as my graduation, so that will be exciting, i'm sure. being in florida...so close to whittney and possibly seeing her! she said she'd try to come see me while i was in orlando, but i don't know if it will happen. i hope it does, that would be amaaazing, and i would really enjoy it. i saw ms. amy today, so that's good. i hadn't seen here in like a month, but there was really no reason TO see her. everything at home is mellow, and under control. i feel disconnected from everybody though...just like amy said, i've been distant. and i don't mean to be, it's just the way it is right now. we think we know why i've been throwing up every meal i eat...probably anxiety...but it'll be alright. i;m sure that everything will be fine by the time i get out of high school. i've had a pounding headache for the past two days, and it won't go away. just like someone is taking a nail to my head, and hammering it with a hammer. /: it just crappy. although, laura and i have been getting along great. :] we laugh a lot when i talk, and it makes my days sometimes, just cos i need that laugh or something. i've been addicted to tumblr lately. it just makes me smile. :] and i need smiles sometimes. ms. amy said i seemed just exhausted, which i am, but i don't feel like i should be. i sleep all the time, and whatnot. i'm lazy. never go out with friends or anything. i walk a lot, and go to school, but that is about the extent of my excercise. hehe. anyway, the bell is gonna ring. i'll write soon..

thanks for listening in,

   jessica ♥