Summer '09: This summer will be all about change. I'm determined to find out what my life really means. I'm hoping that new friends will come into my life, and old ones stay. I'm tired of being hurt, and I'm tired of not knowing who my real friends are. If you are my real friend, then thank you for being there for me, and thank you for not deserting me.
If you are not one of my true friends, then please, don't hurt me anymore. I can't stand having fake friends. It pisses me off, and I don't like it.
This summer will be all about me. Changing what I need to change, discovering what I need about myself. I know that there are things that I need to change. I need to stop believing that there is someone good enough for me that won't hurt me. I want to find love, but I know that I won't find it now, and I need to accept that.
My dad has yet to say anything about the divorce, but I no longer expect it to happen. He brought Scab home after he left for Virginia; even after she threw her hissy fit. I'm sick and tired of being lied to. I'm tired of the non-communication between me and my dad. It needs to stop, and I'm determined to change that. I wish he was there for me more, and that IS going to happen. I will start talking to him, no matter how much it hurts me or him, because that's what needs to happen.
I hope that my true friends will show themselves, and be there and support me as I continue on my quest to make my life better.
Thanks for listening in,
Jessica or Delilah. ♥
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