Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, all over again~

So, I have come to realization that I'm still in love with Daisy. I've never stopped actually loving her. Last night proved that she felt the same way. She told me that if she were to turn lesbian, she would go straight for me, that she was in love with me. I don't what to say, and I don't know what to do. We talked this morning, and she's not going to break up with Connor just to date me. But she said that if they break up, then she's going after me. I don't know how to feel. I love her. I love her. I can't just not love her. Every person that I've dated, Daisy's hated, and every time we break up, I always think, no matter what, "Daisy will be so happy." I didn't ever understand why I would think that, but now I do. Because I want to be with Daisy. I want her. I want her to feel the same way, and I want us to be together. That's what I want.

But I know what I need. I need to step away before I get my heart broken again. I need to prepare myself for that heartbreak. Amy and I talked last night, and I told her that I was going to push her away, and she flipped out. Honestly, I wasn't expecting that. I was expecting her to be like, "Okay. Whatever. Tell me when you're done being dramatic." But she didn't. She fought with me over it, and I realized that I do have real friends. I mean, it was like an epiphany. It made me realize that people actually care, and they aren't just there. I know I say I realize things a lot, but rarely do I mean it, because always, somewhere in the back of my mind, I can't believe it. I can't believe that there are people that will never leave me. I can't believe that there are people who TRULY care. I can't. But now I believe in one person. One, and that's all I need.

Thanks for listening in,
   Jessica or Delilah ♥