it's a quarter after one, i'm all alone, and i need you now.

I don't even know. I'm confused, and I'm hurt, and I'm lost. I thought that maybe after a month of not having Daisy in my life, things would get better, and they have to an extent. But at the same time, things are the same. Mom still bitches at me for not using my brain, or not using my common sense, or something to remind me that I'm retarded. It seems like everyday, it's "Why did you do that? Why can't you use your brain? Why are you so complicated to figure out? Why can't I understand your head? It makes me tired." Gee, thanks, mom. Way to be supportive. It really hurts my feelings when she doesn't understand why I do things. It's like, I have a different mind than she does, and she's trying to change who I am so she can understand me. I don't understand myself, so why should she be expected to? -sigh- I don't know. Maybe it's because I am retarded. Maybe that brain injury disabled me. Ugh. I just wish I could do something about it. I wish I could stop being retarded. It seems like everything I do, it's just constant bitching. I'm getting tired of it. /=

Onto better things, I'm getting better. It's not as hard to see Daisy in the halls, and it's a hell of a lot easier now that she's not in any of my classes. So, I guess it's better there. She's gone all suicidal again, not that I care, I just think it's stupid. I definitely don't miss her drama. I had a girlfriend, Abbi, a couple weeks ago, but we broke up, and now I'm dating an amazing person. <3 I'm not gonna go into details, but I am gonna say that they definitely make me happy. I guess I'm going to go do my English term-theme. Should be fun. =/

Thanks for listening in,
   Jessica or Delilah ♥